I have a lot floating around in my head right now. Here are a few things that are stirring.
First, a story.
The other night, we had one of the worst storms I've experienced since moving to Oxford. Maybe one of the worst storms ever. It was totally out of the blue, so I was caught off guard. (And if you know me, you know I'm always on top of the weather. Probably because of my half OCDness and half anxiety over it.)
We were driving home as the storm was approaching, and I kept checking the color of the sky through the mirrors. I thought we were in the clear as we turned into our neighborhood. Wrong!
As we turned up our street, wood & screens & other building debris got picked up by the wind and thrown across the road, right in front of our car. Richie had to swerve to miss it. Just then, lightning struck a tree at the front of our neighborhood. It exploded in a blue clap of light & sound. Lightning then struck again just across from our house, which in turn caused our power to go out.
At this point, we were in the driveway, sitting in the car, lightning striking all around and wind picking up everything in sight, heaving it in every direction. Because the power was out, we couldn't open the garage door. To get inside, we'd have to jump out of the car and run through the torrential rain & wind, opening our front door manually.
We ran as fast as we could, my heart pounding, and huddled under the cover by our front door. Richie was fiddling with the keys to lock the car and I, rather freaked out, grabbed the keys and yelled, "Forget about locking the car!" It took me about 20 seconds to get the door unlocked (mental note: must get that fixed, because it is very difficult to get open, which we've known forever but had no reason to get going. Time to fix it!).
Finally, we were safe inside the house, soaking wet, me shaking from the experience. I ran around the house, gathering up flashlights and candles, since it was dusk. We watched the storm for a bit from the windows. When it was over, we loaded up the car to go stay at my parents' house (the lightning hit the powerlines so we figured power would be out all night) and drove around the neighborhood surveying damage. Definitely a bad storm!
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Just as I'm sitting here typing this, Richie, mom & I are having a conversation about our upcoming anniversary. I asked Richie what he wants. He doesn't know. Then I tell him what I want: a new digital SLR camera and/or a new laptop.
Actually, the conversation went like this.
Me: What are you getting me for our anniversary?
Richie: I don't know.
Me: I need a new digital SLR camera and a new laptop.
silence
Me: What do you want?
Richie: nothing
Mom: That's not very romantic.
Me: Well, I need those things.
Then I corrected myself and said that I don't really
need those things, I
want them. I am trying to work on being more specific with my language, so as to help our budget. And to help me be a better person.
Sometimes having no money is difficult. Like when I want a digital SLR camera and laptop. Or when medical bills can't be paid. But I stop and remember how thankful I am to have a roof over my head, food on the table, love in my marriage, a healthy family, jobs...I could go on and on with all of our blessings. Believe it or not, I even feel blessed to be struggling with money right now. It helps keep me focused on what is truly important. I hope what I learn during these difficult times are lessons that I will not soon forget.
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I'm very excited because I have a business idea that is almost ready for implementation. Richie & I have been talking about it for a while now, and it is something I'm really excited about.
The overhead is very small so, even if it is a flop, the financial loss won't be too great. Over the past few months, I've been working on researching the market, the idea, writing a business plan, all of those good things.
I'm stoked about this opportunity because I think it could really work in our small town.
Stay tuned for details as I launch my business :)